January 2010
random stupid boring days call for cleaning :)
yumm,
oreo icecream was exactly what i needed to make this day perfect.
sex
malachi
shower
makeup
hair
mall
laughs
deltaco
warmer weather
oreo icecream
Perfect day? I think so.
one day soon, love, we will have our own place, with little baby clothes scattered everywhere.
We will be a loving family, i can see you cooking and me comforting Jacobie. Smiling.
Ohh i cant wait. its all pictured in my head, i want it perfect.
I want a bookshelf for a walll. filled with books ive read.
I want millions of pictures hung up on a light green painted wall.
across from my...
It makes sense after all, the opposite of absolute ruthlessness is absolute tenderness-and when you ripped the one away, you were left with the other.
“I still find each day too short for all the thoughts I want to think, all the...”
– John Burroughs
:(
It is so amazing to me how a almost perfect day can just unexpectidaly take a complete u turn. I got all ready i did my makeup dressed up pretty. I actually took the time to make myself feel really good. I waited for you to come home, thought about you all day, then you get here and a stupid moment made by a stupid person ruins everything. I really wish you could realize that the past is the past....
jacobie marcell
Omg child not only have you occupied mostly all of my stomach, youve also taken over my mind. I seriously cant get you out of my head! Everything i think about ends up being about you. When someone mensions softball, i think about how i cant wait to buy you your first mit and teach you how to catch and throw. When someone mensions tattoos, i think about my first one im getting on my shoulder of...
worries.
So ive spent most of today thinking about jacobie,
Stuff like how hes going to look and act and grow. And it makes me feel really good.
But then i got to thinking about how painfull its going to be to get him here. How scared i am of the needle thats going into my spine, of afterbirth and complications.
Im scared he wont make it through birth or that something crazy might happen that could...
I stand for freedom of expression, doing what you believe in, and going after your dreams
“God’s gifts put man’s best dreams to shame.”
– Elizabeth Barrett Browning
“Jesus said, ‘I am the Beginning and the Ending’”
– ~ Revelation 22:13
There’s something called the soulmate principle. I’ve never believed in it. I’ve laughed at people who talked about it. But what is it? Its the idea that everyone has one and just one soulmate in the world, and that if you find them, you recognize them immediately. And well, that’s that.
So i think we live or die together from now on.
“This is my wish for you: Comfort on difficult days, smiles when sadness intrudes, rainbows to follow the clouds, laughter to kiss your lips, sunsets to warm your heart, hugs when spirits sag, beauty for your eyes to see, friendships to brighten your being, confidence for when you doubt, courage to know yourself, patience to accept the truth, Love to complete your life.”
“There is no book more important to me than this one.”
– Alice Walker
Their Eyes Were Watching God.
Ships at a distance have every man’s wish on board. For some they come in with the tide. For others they sail forever on the horizon, never out of sight, never landing until the watcher turns his eyes away in resignation, his dreams mocked to death by time. That is the life of men.
Now, women forget all those things they dont want to remember, and remember everything they dont want to...
i feel so close to you.
today was great.
yesturday was great.
my life with you is great.
and it always will be.
111,111,111 x 111,111,111 = 12,345,678,987,654,321
:D
OHH MY GOD;;
you make me SOOO happy :D
i swear to God, you are seriously the best thing to ever happen to me.
you have shown me what true happiness really is.
im glad we can talk im glad we can work things out.
i cried to you harder than i though i needed to cry,
once it started it just kept comming,
and you were there to listen to my every word, to rub my back and feel my pain.
but i still feel selfish, i feel like i can always...
“A woman knows the face of the man she loves as a sailor knows the open sea.”
– Honore de Balzac
even hunters can be hunted.
All men dream, but not equally. Those who dream by night in the dusty recesses of their minds, wake in the day to find that it was vanity: but the dreamers of the day are dangerous men, for they may act on their dreams with open eyes, to make them possible
“All strange and terrible events are welcome, but comforts we despise.”
– Cleopatra
“As your faith is strengthened you will find that there is no longer the need to...”
– Emmanuel Teney
sometimes i worry, its a part of life.
sometimes i try to hard, i strive to do you proud.
sometimes i dont try hard enough, im not perfect.
sometimes i yell and argue, i get upset who dosent?
but sometimes all i want you to do is hold me and let me know that im perfect the way i am, and everything i do, when i overreact, or cry, or yell, is what makes you love me.
you are my life. i do...